| In case anyone wanted to hear....
it is dying down now. all the rage (like a little old man) is still sitting there at the bottom, bathing in my own blood looking up through my lungs laughing at me histarically, it makes me mad to think about it. ironic. i know i dont want this feeling but its hard to just get over, dont misinterpret this! yesterday it was about myself, today it is about the computor, none are about him. i love him and i know he does love me but it hurts when a problem comes and i cant help but remember the car ride and the rage. i wish i could have changed one part of yesterday to make everything that happened yesterday go how it was supposed to. and Iwish i didnt take te stupid disc out today. sadness and anger. drives me freaking crazy!
do not misinterpret this. it is not as important as it sound. i take it back. it is important. I wonder if this feeling will really take a year to get over, if it does i wonder if I will ever be able to give it up. Yeah, i have to give it to God and I have, but why does He keep throwing it back into my face..... AHHH! |
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